Night In

"Dear Diary...
God he's gorgeous.He's the best looking thing i've EVER seen in my life and i've seen quite a few guys!I mean once upon a time i had .Yea that's right !The best looking one from Busted by far.But that's all in the past.Busted are over =( and so are me and .But .Man he's completely different.I love everything about him.I love the way his hair flops in front of his eyes,i love the way he denies he straightens his hair,trust me dude,i've seen the baby pictures and with curly hair aint half as good as his standards nowadays.I love his deep eyes,i love the way he his ,i love the way he's always there for me,i love the way he always finds time for me,i love the way his arms always feel welcoming no matter how bad the pain,i love the way he makes me feel inside.It's official!I've realised my true feelings for him.Maybe tomorrow i'll wake up and it'll be front page news. CONFESSES HER TRUE FEELINGS FOR !Ok maybe it's not that great but to me this means alot. and the dudes are the only guys i've ever trusted...well maybe too,and i do still trust him,he's a great friend.C'mon can you blame me for staying mates with him?How could i ever loose a cute little face like that?Plus he's mates with the guys,and makes sure he visits us once every week.Y'see i find it hard to trust guys.And if you'd lived my life,you'd understand why...
***FLASHBACK***
"Come on baby.Just stay with me for one more night?I'll make it worth while!" pleaded with .
I can't believe you!My mum's lying in a hospital bed,about to DIE and you want me to stay here with YOU just so you can have a quick shag.I'm going to say goodbye to my mum properly." shouted back,emphasising a few words.
"Fine see if i care.Just don't come crawling back to me tomorrow when you've got no one else." snarled and let climb over him and exit the flat.
***
Tears streamed down 's face as the visions of her mother's last few minutes of her life replayed over and over in her head.
"You could and can do so much better .Find someone who actually likes you and has some respect for you.Not someone who just uses you for one thing.The last few months have been so hard for me,to see my daughter sinking to such low levels,when there's some poor soul who's trapped out there,waiting for his destiny,waiting for the best thing that could ever happen come along,waiting for you !"
And then she was gone.All had left was .After her dad had pissed off before was even born,and her mum dying after a continuous and painfull fight with cancer, was left with the thing that frightened her most in life.And the worst thing was,she had to go back and live with that 'thing' for as long as would remain in this 'relationship if you could call it that.There was no passion in it,no excitement,it was dull and boring,and consisted of one thing - sex.
***
walked round a corner and held her nose.There was one house by that corner that was seriously neglected.No one had lived in there for at least 5 years.The housing market have taken it off the market as they've realised no one ever looks at it as they can smell it from a mile off.Nobody actually know's the reason for the smell,but everyone does know the story about the lady that lived there.Apparently she killed herself.Supposedly she was raped and caught AIDS,and couldn't cope with it so she took a drug overdose.The story goes that she couldn't rest in peace because she was sent back.To look after someone.She had no remaining friends or family so no one's quite sure who she's here for.But everytime walked round that corner she could feel something.She would tingle all over and shiver,the hair's standing up on her arms.But was never phased about it.She's lived there for 3 and a half years and she'd got used to the sensation that built up inside her. Up a few more stairs and pushed the door open.
"That's funny.I ran out of perfume a week ago so why does it smell of my perfume?" mumbled to herself,shutting the door quietly behind her.
"Oh baby don't stop!Yea right there!Bloody hell you some kind of expert or something?Oooo your so much better than !" moaned excitedly.
had heard enough.She stormed in the room,knowing what she would see,but just had to see for herself,so she could finally see what her mother was talking about.There was,with some slag,wearing nothing but a stupid blonde wig,which was slipping off her head.
"How much did you hear?" said,cutting straight to the point.
"Enough.But it was obvious she was gonna be better than me.For a start she gets paid for this!This is her job.My mum was right.And i wish i'd listened to her all this time coz she was the only one that could see right through you and tell me what your really like." said,looking at in disgust and slamming the bedroom door shut.
didn't seem bothered and carried on doing 'buisness' with the girl. ran out the house and down to the bus shelter.At least she could keep dry for the night.
***
'Hey !You don't actually know me but you might of heard your mum talking about me,and i'm pretty sure you've heard of my mum.I'm ,your cousin!My mum just told me about your mum.She never really talked about you or your mum before,until now.Anyway i'd love to get in touch with you again,maybe even meet up sometime?I'd better go,running out of credit!Bye!Oh and by the way Auntie ...i mean your mum gave my mum your mobile number.You were her next of kin!Anyway confusing stuff talking about mum's!BYYYEEE!!!!!!!!'
played it over and over again.She remembered her mum once mentioning a and a Auntie something or other,but she never really paid much attention then.There was no question in 's mind about what she would do next.She didn't have anywhere to go,no money,no where to stay and no one to love her. picked up her phone and dialled the number that was now recognised as
. "Hello?" instantly felt safe.His soft,warm voice welcomed her.
"H...Hi!" stuttered.
"So erm you wanna talk?How about you tell me who you are?!" laughed down the phone.
"Oh yea right.I'm .I just got your message!" smiled whilst talking.She had regained her confidence now.
" !I didn't think you would reply.Oh my God this is so great!So you wanna meet up?" managed to scramble into one sentence.
"You wanna take things slowly?I need the last sentence in English please!" laughed down the phone.
"Sorry!I'm just really excited to hear from you.Your my only cousin you see?!So i said you-wanna-meet-up?" replied,this time making sure he didn't rush it.
"Well erm...i'd love to meet up but..."
"Oh i see.Don't worry maybe we can still stay in contact?"
"NO ! I DO want to meet up but i don't have any way of getting to you.I haven't got any money or a car."
"Oh.Well i could order a taxi for you! I'll be there soon!" chirped,hanging up the phone without saying goodbye.
smirked to herself.She couldn't believe that her mum had just died less than a day ago,and she still felt this happy. Maybe her life was about to turn around for the good...
***END OF FLASHBACK***
" !That was my chip!" squeled like a little girl.
"But other people's chips always taste better than your own!" pouted,pinching the last chip from 's plate.
"Right that's it!"
screamed as chased her around the living room. peered back behind her to who was puffing his cheeks out like he was running a marathon.!BASH!
"OW!" murmered,rubbing the back of her head.
"Comfy?"A voice from below said.
"Hmmm yep!Wait a minute... !" squeled,rushing over to 's arms.
"Ha ha.You scared her man!You really should do something about your face dude!" joked,whilst rubbing 's shoulder.
"Shut up !" whispered,looking down at his hands.
"I didn't mean it that way .You just freaked me out when you were under me!" cringed as she tried to find a way to express it without or turning it it into something dirty.
and gave each other glances and smirked to themselves.
"I'm going to my room.I need to get away from you boys and your cheeky remarks about everything i say!" sighed whilst walking up the stairs to her room.
threw herself on her bed and stared at all the photo's that were pinned up on her wall.
Of course they were all of and the guys.Who else was there to take pictures of in 's life?
One photo caught 's eye.A picture of and together on the beach. giving a piggy back and pulling a face as though weighed a ton,whilst wrapping her arms tightly around and smiling as if she had no problems in her life,as if her and were the only two there that day,as if nothing else mattered. thought back to downstair's events and buried her head in her pillow,as if to hide herself from the shame.She never used to be like that with .She used to love having tickle fights with him,to be around him,to be in his arms and to cuddle up to him when she was scared.But now she was frigid and scared to show her feelings.She was scared to touch him and have playfights incase she seemed too touchy feely or clingy for someone that's 'just a mate'.
quickly jumped as someone knocked on the door,interrupting her thoughts.
'Anyone but .Anyone but .' chanted inside her head.
sighed a sigh of relief when walked in.
"So what happened down there?" asked straight away,whilst sitting down next to on the bed and gently rubbing her back.
"Nothing.What do you mean?" replied,acting as if she was confused and didn't know what was going on,but was never good at lying.
"Just coz i haven't known you all your life it doesn't mean i don't know when your lying.I know you lurve ." quietly said.
"WHAT?!How do you know?Oh crap i mean erm...i don't?!" looked at with a knowing expression and sighed and gave up.
"Fine fine i do like .And more than a friendly way,but there's no way i'm doing anything about it.It's obvious he doesn't like me in that way."
"How?"
"What?"
"How is it obvious he doesn't like you in that way?" repeated himself a little more clearly this time.
"I don't know.But why would he like me anyway?I'm nothing special.I've never been anything special to anyone.Maybe my mum once upon a time,but what use is that to me now?" sobbed,which picked up on.He pulled in closer and wrapped his arms around her. rested her head on his chest and cried.
The two sat there for a while,until had stopped crying and decided to break the silence.
"You are special.Your special to me and I'm so glad you came into my life.And your beautiful .I'm proud to be your cousin and 's crazy if he doesn't like you in a 'more than friends' way!"
"That's the sweetest thing anyone's ever said to me." smiled as the tears welled up in her eyes once again.
took 's hand and led her downstairs.
"Pizza?"
"How can i turn down pizza?" replied,licking her lips.
*** FLASHBACK***
" ?" spun around and was greeted with a pair of large, eyes and a head of hair."
"I'm guessing your then?"
"Your guess would be right!Wanna come to mine?"
"Sure!Erm i don't have any things though.All my stuff is in my flat...i mean my old flat." said,looking in the direction of her and 's old flat.
"You wanna go and get it?" asked.He had no idea about what had done the previous night.
"I...erm...can't."
"Why?Have you lost your keys?" asked.
"Nope.My ex...he cheated on me and i don't wanna go in there again.You know what it doesn't matter.I'll just stay in these clothes." said.She really couldn't face going in there again.
"No your not!I'll go in there with you if you want?" offered.
smiled and walked with to the house.
***
and came out laughing.They got 's things...eventually.All it took was a swift kick in the balls,for to realise wasn't taking him back.
"Hold up!Does that mean you don't have anywhere to live now?" asked,stopping everything and standing still on the pavement.
"I guess yea!" replied shyly.
"You wanna move in with me?I've got my own flat.Well i have flat mates but their really nice dudes!" asked,smiling slightly at 's 'thinking' face.
"I'm sure you don't want me to move in with you.I'll only get in the way." said glumly.
"Hey hey hey.Of course i want you to move in with me!And you won't get in the way.I've got a spare room!"
"Well hi !I'm your new flat mate!" laughed,as her and scrambled into a taxi and drove off towards 's new life!
***
"Dudes?Are you in?"There was silence in the whole house.
"Oh shame coz i've brought a girl back!"The moment the words left 's mouth footsteps could be heard running about the whole of the house.People running down the stairs,people running through the living room,and people running in from outside!
"Er you've got a girlfriend i think you should just leave me and this fine young lady alone together."A guy with hair said cheekily,pushing down the hallway.
"Woah dude stop!This is ,my c-o-u-s-i-n!" spelt out for ,walking back towards and putting his arm around her shoulders.
"Damn!Well i'm .Nice to meet you !" said kissing lightly on the cheek.
"Nice to meet you too !" replied polietly.
"Hey !Who's the fit girl?"
couldn't help but blush.Deciding to live here with and these cute guys could quite possibly be one of the best choices she'd ever made!
" !That would be my cousin so don't try anything!" smiled.He could read the guys like a book.
sighed and made a weird clicking sound with his hand.
"Oh well.Anyways nice to meet you.I'm ." said,bending down and taking 's hand,he gently kissed it.
"I'm .So your the gentleman of the house then?" asked,smiling at who seemed to be thinking.
"Yea i suposse i am yea.But the guys here have such bad manners it's not exactly hard to be the 'polite' one of the house!" returned the smile,and then walked into a room.
"You wanna go and watch some tv or be shown to your room?" asked
. "HEY!Aren't you gonna introduce me then?"A voice from the stairs said.
"Oh sorry mate!I didn't see you. this is . this is my cousin ." quickly did the introductions.
"Hi.It's good to finally see some good looking ladies in this house!" smiled warmly at .
had to admit was good looking,and obviously had a sense of humour,but there was something about him that she couldn't quite pick up on.
"Oi missy!Stop staring at that idiot and unpack your things." said,waving a hand infront of 's face.
"Oh...yea...sure.Good to meet you ." smiled,before picking up a small bag and following up the stairs.
***END OF FLASHBACK***
"Argh man there's no pizza left." moaned as he slumped down on the sofa next to .
"Awww sorry ,me and ate the last of it.We thought you had gone out clubbing with and for the rest of the night.
"Meh.Don't worry about it babe.I was out clubbing but i got bored. kept pulling all these girls and i wasn't get any.And met up with this girl, i think her name was,and he's gone back to her's so i figured i'd rather spend the rest of tonight with my gorgeous flatmate."
"Thanks ! I think your gorgeous too!" joked.
"Shut up .I don't think would be happy if she found out her boyfriend was gay!" laughed.
"I'd better go phone actually.See if she wants to come round tonight." explained,before walking upstairs to his room,smiling happily.
Dear Diary...
Now is the kind of person that has a perfect life.Even though she's my best friend,i still find myself becoming more and more jealous of her everyday.She's got great mates,she's got a great family,she's got a great personality,she's really pretty,and most of all...she has a boyfriend.The one thing i long most for in life.But i don't just want a ordinary boyfriend.I want !It's just a shame i can't have him...especially not now,after his night out clubbing...
***
and had fallen asleep together on the sofa after watching late night television.They both had their heads leaning on each other,and they were both lightly snoring.
"Shhh you've gotta be quiet . , and are probably asleep." whispered.
twitched,but didn't move from her position,leaning on ,and listened intently.
"How are we supossed to have sex without waking them up then?" said bluntly,making 's eye's widen.
"We'll just have to be extra carefull!" replied cheekily,before taking 's hand and leading her upstairs.
sighed quietly,but apparently not quiet enough as started to stir.
"Hey babe!What you doing up?" mumbled,whilst yawning and quickly stretching.
" woke me.He's just got back with that girl that was round here the other day...erm .That's the one!"
"Oh.Hey don't worry she doesn't mean anything to him.He's completely pissed so he's gonna wake up tomorrow and realise what a mistake he's made." said,stroking 's face.
looked at with a confused face.
"Oh yea.I know about your little crush on ...and so does !" replied sheepishly,rubbing the back of his head cautiously.
"How did you find out?Did tell you?" began to panick.
"No.No.No babe.It's obvious.Everyone know's apart from .Next time you get a crush on someone,try and make it more discreet if you don't want them to find out!" tried to sooth from her small panick attack.
"That's just it.I don't want to have a crush on anyone else.I want and that's it!" said weakly.
"Awww babe.Well don't forget i'm here for you whenever you need me,so is and and 's gonna be here for you too!" smiled at ,and went back to the sleeping position of leaning on ,whilst had some serious thinking to do!
***FLASHBACK***
"Hey this is !" said lightly,walking into the living room with a guy,but not just any guy!...
"OH MY GOD FROM BUSTED!?!?!?" screeched,whilst putting the PS2 controller down that she had been using to literally thrash with.His excuse everytime was 'I'm letting you win coz your a girl and you might cry if i beat you!'Yea right !
"Erm...should i be equally as happy to meet you,like this,OH MY GOD VERY FIT CHICK IN THE DUDES LIVING ROOM!?!?!?" adopted the same girly screeching sound that had used.
"Wow! I never knew a bloke could get his voice that high.Except maybe coz he's more in touch with his femine side then other men!" laughed at her own joke and joined in with her.
"Oi!And you Mr ,no flirting with her.She's my cousin!"
loved the way that was protective of her,but sometimes he went a little bit over the top.Every guy set eyes on or every room where there was a guy in the same room as ,they would all get the same lecture,'She's my cousin so don't go near her'.
"How come your cousin's good looking and you've turned out the way you are then?" said,sitting down on the armchair.
"Awww 's very good looking...for a gorilla!" joked again,this time making herself, and burst out in a fit of laughter.
"Ha ha very funny.Does anyone want a drink?" offered,deciding to change the subject before another comment was said about him.
"Yea can i have a water pwezzzeeee?!" asked,scrunching her eyes up and pulling a silly face.
"How can i say no to something as stupid as that!" replied,poking his tongue out at ,and quickly dodging her hand that was ready to hit him.
"I'll just have a coke dude." said simply.
"Get me a coke too will ya ?" 's voice boomed from the hallway,just as had entered the kitchen.
"Will do." 's voice could be made out from the kitchen.
" dude!What's up?" said,as he sat down next to on the sofa and placed his arm around her.
" mate!Not much,just come to check out your fit roomate!" replied,winking at .
"Don't let hear you say that or he'll go mad and break out in this whole lecture thing.Anyways 's mine!" replied.
was shocked.She had never seen as anything other than a good friend.
"Oh sorry mate i didn't realise.I'll stop flirting with her now." said,not realising was lying.
"I was joking mate.Me and are just good mates!" replied,tightening his grip on 's shoulder.
All could do was sit there and smile. had seriously screwed with her head,because now all these new feelings had started to shoot about everywhere,and saw in a completely different perspective now.
***END OF FLASHBACK***
woke to the sound of giggling.She kept her eyes closed and stayed in the position of leaning on .She felt safe that way.
"God i love you so much ."A familiar voice murmered.
knew that voice.It was . had been wrong, didn't wake up and regret sleeping with .Here he is now,declaring his love for her.What's he going to do next?Get married to her?
felt something grip on her hand and dared to open her eyes.
's hand was holding 's hand tightly.
looked up quickly to see with his eyes closed,but with a smile on his face.He was awake!Well it would be kinda hard to sleep with all the noices and were making.
Then heard it.She felt like she was going to be sick.The dreaded sound of hungry lips,searching for each other could be heard,and then the moans started to kick in.'Oh God please don't have sex in here.It's bad enough i have to hear you kissing but screwing each other is just too much for me to take'. seemed to be screaming in her head.She was going to have to do something soon,like wake up,because her heart felt like it was already shattered.
"YOU GUYS!Can't you get a room or something? and are sleeping!" heard shout.
"Oh sorry ,dude.I didn't even realise they were down here." replied honestly.
felt the anger build up inside her.He's too busy shoving his tongue down a girl's throat to even notice his best friend and the girl that is so madly in love with him,she'd eat the world's smelliest cheese.(Don't get me started on cheese.All i'm going to say is that thing is pure evil!)
stole the words out of 's head though.
"You wouldn't would you?You've been too busy shoving your tongue down some girl's throat." said,quite harshly actually but it had to be said.
"Hey aint just 'some girl' she's the girl of my dreams.She's everything i could want in a girl and more." retaliated,pulling up by the hand and taking her upstairs to his room.
That was it, couldn't cope any more,the tears poured out from her eyes,as her heart slowly started to fade away.It was as though it had vanished,the moment was out of her reach.Because that's what he was now.Untouchable.Unless of course you were ,and you could touch ,talk to and tease .Was life worth living now was out of reach?
Dear Diary...
I have to have either , or with me wherever i go now. thinks i'm going to kill myself,and if i tell you the truth,the thought has entered my mind a few times.I know it seems stupid,but you have no idea what it's like to be me.Have you ever loved someone sooo much it makes you feel sick?Have you ever loved someone sooo much that you have dreams about being with them every night?Have you ever loved someone sooo much that you've planned out your future with them?Like all your kids names,if you'll have a boy or a girl,the day you'll get married,the groom's speech,the bridesmaid's,the dress?Well i have!I seem like a freak i know,but you do the stupidest things when your in love. 's even had to move in now,because there's no way i'm going to the toilet with , ,or watching!But i think wanted to move in anyway.This just came up at the right time and now he has a good excuse! But i've got a new moto.Always look foward,and never back.Because you can't live in the past!I'm going to forget about ,and move on.I did it with and so i can do it with as well...right?
***FLASHBACK***
"I can't believe he asked her out." muttered to the McFly guys,whilst and were out together somewhere.
"I can't believe she said yes to him." muttered too.
All the guys turned to .
"Well i mean she know's what 's like with her.Even though asked her out,she didn't have to say yes!" quickly rambled,after realising what he had said.
"He has a point." agreed.
" you can't stop her from seeing who she wants.How would you feel if said to ,'You can't go near him he's my cousin!'?" asked.
"Well that's not fair.I love ." moaned.
"Have you ever thought might love ?" reasoned.
went into a deep think and suddenly said,
"I've been a complete dick haven't I?"The McFly guys looked at each other wearily,and slowly nodded their heads.
"So what you gonna do?" asked.
"I'm gonna stop going on at her about seeing ,and i'm never gonna give a guy the 'she's my cousin' lecture again!" stated.
Everyone in the room smiled,including .
Maybe he finally had a chance of getting with ...
***END OF FLASHBACK***
"What's up dude?" asked .
" ." replied bluntly.
"What about her?" asked,putting down the PS2 controller.He was getting some quick extra practise to make sure he could beat this time!
"She's been two timing me.With some guy called !" spat.
"Well at least the door's open for now eh?" suggested.
"Yea but she probably don't feel the same...wait a minute...how did you know i liked her in that way?" asked,bewildered.
just tapped his nose and said "There's not much that i don't know!"
"So do you know if she feels the same then?" asked,taking advantage of what had just said.
"Well..."
***Downstairs***
"Ok ,me and are going out now.Gotta do some recording in the studio.You just call me if you need anything right?" said.
"Ok ." wanted them to go,she felt like she could finally be trusted to be by herself again.
"Bye!" and both said,before wlaking out of the house.
Vicky settled herself down on the sofa when she was briefly interrupted by the sound of footsteps rushing down the stairs.
"Crap! did and just leave?( nodded)Damn!I'm supossed to be recording in the studio with them." rambled,before running out the door.
sat back down on the sofa and relaxed.She was allowed some freedom at last.
was at her parents,the guys were recording and ... was somewhere.Probably with that little bitch .
"You wanna watch a movie with me?" turned around to be faced with .
"What are you doing here?I thought you were with ." mumbled,turning back round to the T.V.She had hardly spoken to since she caught them kissing in the same room as her.
"Na.It's over between us.I guess things just wern't meant to work out for the two of us." stated,sitting down next to ,and fixing his eyes on her.
turned to ,and came face to face with his deep eyes.She felt her heart rise,as it started to reform from the last time,when it shattered and vanished.
"So you wanna watch a movie with me or not?" repeated his original question.
"Er...yea sure!" stuttered.
***
"Ha ha wasn't that movie great?" laughed.Her mood had lightened up from before.
" ...I love you!" said straight away,he couldn't keep it in any longer.
"Who,what,when?" stumbled across her words.
"I love you." repeated himself,not loosing any of his original confidence.
"Please say something." whispered,to break the very uneasy silence that had struck the two of them.
leaned in and kissed full on the lips.She put so much into it,and returned the favour by filling 's mouth with passion.Suddenly felt a strange tingling sensation build up inside of her,and started to shiver all over.
" ,baby what's wrong?" asked,concerned.
The sensation continued to build up until it finally stopped,and felt like the whole world had been taken off her shoulders.
"What happened there?" questioned.
"Oh nothing.Someone's just been left to rest in peace." smiled as she realised what had happened.
The lady that had been sent back,had been with through everything.She had never been alone at all.And now was with the person that knew her mother had been talking about.The poor soul who was trapped and waiting for was .
"Let's spend the rest of the night in.Just you and me." smiled to ,before pulling her up with his hand and leading her upstairs,to start the beginning of something very special.
Dear Diary...
I've never been so happy before.I'm still bemused as to why the lady was sent back to look after me.I'm sure there's people worse of than i am...was. Everything is so perfect between me and now.We're getting married in a few weeks!I never thought in a zillion years i would become Mrs ! and are still going strong,they've got a little girl now and she's the cutest little thing! ' s still protective of me,but he leaves most of the protecting to now,which can get annoying,but it doesn't matter because i love him! 's found himself a new girlfriend,that girl from the club, .He's moved out of the McFly house and has moved into a proper big house with . 's recovering from a broken heart,after a girl ditched him at the alter!(I know how harsh?!)But i'm helping him through it,because i know what he's going through,heartbroken,i've been there before!,and we've become best friends. I've decided to stop writing a diary now,because i don't have any secret crushes to go on about,or any problems in my life,so thanks for always being here,whenever i've needed a friend,to listen to me,whenever i'm down.
Goodbye Diary...